4.0 mi
06:37
1:39 /mi
Conference 1 Mile
I really hate to complain about this, but I don’t think this was my meet, and I don’t think this Indoor Season for me was great at all, I technically only had set 1 personal best throughout the season. Sure, my mile season best improved by 20 seconds from the time between LT and now, but is inexcusable when I’m even running 20 seconds slower than my personal best, which was under the lights. I was just shy of getting a PR, with 1 second, and I definitely could’ve gotten there. I completely shut down towards the second half, and to be honest, I was nervous leading up to the race as I had no one to pace with. Everyone was 30 seconds to a minute faster than what I was seeded at, and it completely discouraged me. I blame myself, I let my thoughts swallow me whole. I was constantly thinking negative thoughts as I was in the team area, and it overwhelmed me, putting my mind in a scramble leading up to the race. I didn’t know what to do at all, if I wanted to keep pace with Ayush and Eric, run with the pack, or just run my own. And, as soon as the gun went off, I was in the back. Going back to me shutting down, I must’ve just fell asleep, I knew I could’ve pushed myself harder on that last lap, and I am pretty pissed at myself for not going for it, I had nothing to lose. My goal by the end of indoor track was to at least get 6:10 or under in the mile, and sure, I’ve only ran 2 mile events, it still upsets me that I didn’t get myself passed that line or goal. It’s like I let myself down, I hope to come back for outdoor with more ferocity and drive to compete.